Sunday, November 28, 2004

8:10 PM how we gonna paaay? how we gonna paaaay? how we gonna paaay-- last year's rent?????
WE LIGHT CANDLES!!!!
god, jonathan larsen, you are a GEEEEEEEEEEENIUS!!!!
ok. yeah. hallo.
man i wish we didn't have to go to school demain.
and i wish i got to see robby more. *sigh* i love him so much. i miss him when he's not around. there's a little emptiness. i know, that sounds so melodramatic and stuff but it's true. everything is better when he is around. but on the bright side i am done with my homework basically!!! yeehah. i should read or something. i haven't read in forever and i feel bad about it, esp. when i'm sposed to be doing these silly IB books. hrm.
HOW DO YOU LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND WHEN IT KEEPS FINDING WAYS TO GET TO YOUR HEART?
IT REACHES WAY DOWN DEEP AND PULLS YOU INSIDE OUT TIL YOU'RE TORN APART
ahhhh such great lines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was in such a different place in my life last year at this time. it was good, and interesting, and i was happy, but i am always interested to compare life a year later. i dunno why i do... i think that i just like the way life goes and i like to see how it changes and why it does what it does... and i always have these longings to go back to me, a year ago tonight, any night, and tell me what is going to happen in the future and see myself gasp or whatever. i dunno. i am way babbling. but i like to see the way things work with people and relationships.
TIME FLIES
TIME DIES
GLORY
ONE BLAZE OF GLOOOOORY
i love all my family and friends so much. i love seeing dan be married, and seeing how happy leeanne makes him. i like seeing my little cousins grow up. i like watching david and kelly's wedding video from 1994 and seeing tracy and annie and meghan who has a baby girl now be such little girls. i like seeing nathan and lk get back together. i like allie talking about going to florida for the summer and working for herself. i like john roeser talking about life and the bible and random things. i like bo platt being so silly and suave at the same time. i like candler going on and on about his birthday. i like having a group of friends that has known each other for 5 years or more but has just gotten close in the past 2 years. i like that at the party last night there were at least 3 pairs of elementary school friends: me and lizzie, jon jon and robby, and maggie and daniella. i like robby and speno joining the church with all of the youth standing in front of them, amy and bo ph's arms around each other. i like seeing bo stand up at the pulpit with no shoes on and speak and be able to see her big sister's reactions to her words at the same time. i like it when melissa begs megan to help her figure out her new cell phone. i like it when maggie and robby argue over maggie's music. i like sitting in the car with megan, away from the wind, trying not to be messy with ice cream or cuban s/wiches and talking about what our friends are going to do when they grow up. i like talking to david online and connecting with my big brother even though he's so far away. i like calling chris on the phone and feeling like he's never left. i like listening to james, mike, danny, aaron, and thomas talk about teenage mutant ninja turtles and power rangers. i like to see austin's blue mohawk sticking up in the line of voters. i like when adrienne writes crazy notes in church. i like it when robby and bob collaborate on piano and guitar. i like that amy is so hyped that she supercleaned the storage closet at the yaab. i like how kara calls me "seh" and says "robby duncan" in this really sillilly annoying singsong nasally voice whenever he comes to pick me up from swimming. i like getting along well with lk. i like advent. i like knowing what i want and doing what i feel. i like the cool crisp weather and the fall. i like the dream i wrote for casey yesterday. i like my school. i like that i have the declaration of independence tacked up on my wall. i like cole and his long black classy jacket. i like waving to mom and dad during the peace from the balcony. i like katie running over to the yaab in her acolyte robe. i like all the boys going insane when robby starts playing bohemian rhapsody. i like traditional breakfasts with mollie. i like breakfast with the beatles. i like how ms ross screeches "hi claire! hi robby!" every morning. i like sitting by the fire with martha. i like singing christmas songs in choir. i like it when my immediate family is all together. i like when the dogs attack me on the sofa. i like my grandparents' and their wonderful stories. i like diane and her b-zerk updates. i like standing outside the north bldg with my friends and all those unknown freshman girls. and i loove my drummer boy, and his smile, and everything about him. i love all my friends and family.
i love so much in my life. (basically all those "likes" above should be "loves" but i am too lazy to change them all)
please god, help me to remember all that more often.
love,
C

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