Tuesday, April 29, 2003

7:36 pm
hm, guess what all, there was an earthquake this morning!!!!! freaky!!! it was at about 5 am and i woke up cause i had to go to the bathroom, but the house was shaking!! it lasted a little less than a minute but it seemed forever. then i thought i had dreamed it, but it was real! reminds me of the sweet valley twins book "jessica and the earthquake" that i read when i was younger. anyway, went to school and stuff, fairly normal day... had a bit of a headache once again, why does that happen every so often? have a math test tomorrow, not something i'm looking forward to, especially the interior and exterior angles of circles. i understand the central and inscribed angles mostly so that's that. hrm. 18 days of school guys!!! yowza, scary! i reallllly want to go to graduation (whine whine) and apparently some people may be selling tickets they're not going to use. although if it's expensive, then it's not happening. but anyway. read "a step from heaven" by an na today, fairly good book but depressing all the way through and then hopeful at the end. good ending, sad everything else. i finished "i capture the castle" by dodie smith yesterday, and it is one of the most wonderful books i have ever read! here is a list of clairey's top ten books or series of books to read, not in any particular order-
1. I Capture the Castle by Dodie Smith
2. Welcome to the Great Mysterious by Lorna Landvik
3. The Lord of the Rings trilogy by J.R.R. Tolkien
4. The Mitford Years by Jan Karon
5. Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg
6. The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot
7. The Georgia Nicolson series by Louise Rennison
8. The Song of the Lioness by Tamora Pierce
9. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
10. An Old-Fashioned Girl by Louisa May Alcott
wow, i seem to have a lot to say or write down tonight. i wrote a poem earlier today about last night's choir practice, or the break we had in between it. it's called "playground"...
Sitting in our places,
bored out of our minds!
Bass, tenor, alto, soprano.
God, do we ever need a break.
Go on out, ladies,
I must work with the gentlemen,
says Westopher The Hunk
(so named by David and our Secretary of State).
So out we scramble to our childhoods,
for just minutes, ten precious minutes
to remember our forgotten preteen lives.
Run, catapult out to the playground,
where we spent all our days as youngsters.
We have known each other forever,
since birth, since life, since strength.
We have been out here together
a zillion times before, but have
lost those memories in the shuffle
of others more important:
first date, first car, first day of high school.
These simple and more innocent times
may have been dusty, packed away, up til now,
but tonight, as we swing and slide
and sit on those tires where we
used to have such “meaningful” talks,
this Monday evening after a day full
of tough high school work and play
seems to change, spinning, quickly into
a Wednesday night in elementary school.
We will soon be called in for choir time,
run all the way upstairs to the top floor,
whisper to each other to be quiet for the
college students who seem so old to us.
Now, we are not far behind them in the world.
There are shrieks and laughs from all of us girls,
special girls who have shared secrets
and sleepovers and inside jokes forever and a day.
Some realize, wow! This used to happen all the time…
But now it is just quick nostalgia and then CRACK!
Now back to harsh reality, harsh teenage life,
Where some drink and smoke and hate and love
And sing and dance and work and laze and hope…
But file the past away in our disorganized brains.
And so we get called back into the stuffy checkered
room on this Monday evening of April 28, 2003,
many, many years after we have ever
tramped this earth happily together,
and now we are very changed, but
the memories linger on…

must go study for stupid math test. and read harry potter because i'm bored and it's a nice night... oh yes- i've seem to have run the gammit (i don't think that's how you spell it but oh well) of emotions today since i got home... when mom was talking to the orthodonist secretary about times to put on my braces i burst into tears for about three minutes and then wiped them away as fast as i could and ate cookies, determined not to think about it. then i went for a walk for thirty minutes around the neighborhood, listening to "joseph" on the cd player. i needed a break and coach neill said that walking for twenty to thirty minutes three to five times a week does wonders as far as health is concerned. i'm so glad i'm not going on the chorus trip this week... i just don't wanna! plus, the concert and sr. banquet and stuff. i am determined to not cry about braces again... maybe. i guess let's just say i'll do my darndest not to. do you know what is strange? two years ago today, we were confirmed! isn't that scary? i sure think it is. i remember that day really well actually. the picnic and such and those great pictures i took of di, david, eric, aileen, and molls. and then that night was parent appreciation night. was that so long ago? my friends think i'm crazy that i remember all these dates, but it's a blessing... that i can remember so much of my past i think. i enjoy it. ok this is procrastination now, i think, as it nears closer to eight o'clock and i don't wanna study for math, yet i want to do well on the test and go to sleep early... sigh. peace peace.

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